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The Psycho Quiz

3 February, 2013
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The Psycho Quiz

I’ve long experienced the same recurring nightmare: I’m going to flunk/fail/fizzle/flop/flounder and get kicked out of school. Last week I had to make a return trip to the psychiatrist. Every now and then the docs like to re-evaluate my medication to keep me from going completely crazy. Since it was my first visit with this particular MD, I had to fill out the anxiety/depression questionnaire. I am familiar with this particular quiz. APPARENTLY, no matter how much experience you have with this same standard medical evaluation, doctors still expect you to simply rate your thoughts on the scale of 0-3.…

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Finding My Pleasure Points After A Sexual Assault

4 August, 2012
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Finding My Pleasure Points After A Sexual Assault

I’ve been sexually repressed for the longest time. I was sexually assaulted when I was 15 and it made me see sex as something dirty and physically uncomfortable. It left me bruised and bloodied and my trust in men is something I can still have a difficult time with. It’s rare when I put my trust in a man and I find that for some twisted reason, I can sabotage a relationship because I don’t feel deserving of being treated right. It took me 2 years before I had the courage to reach out and tell someone about the assault.…

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Oh The Frustration!

31 July, 2012
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Oh The Frustration!

  I have lost more weight. And not in a good way. As I was putting on one of my favorite Bebe pencil skirts this morning, I realized that despite the fact that I had just had my size 0 skirt taken in, it was feeling a little loose. I recognized the problem immediately.   I am the inverse of a stress eater, meaning under duress, I lose weight. This happens for two different reasons. First, I become consumed with whatever it is that is causing the stress (usually something I need to finish), and I just forget to eat.…

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Invisible Mask

17 July, 2012
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Invisible Mask

I live my life disguised behind the mask of someone who knows what they’re doing. Calm, cool, collected. I’ve got it all. But this costume ball is wearing thin. In reality, I’m invisible. I collapse at the end of the day wondering what it would be like to run away. To disappear. To suddenly vanish. Would anyone notice? I’ve started dreaming about that. To escape. I know I can’t do that. So I trudge back to hear people tell me I’m not good enough. I want to hide while running down the halls screaming, “Can’t you hear me?” I want…

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Weight Watchers Rejected Me

10 July, 2012
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Weight Watchers Rejected Me

  Weight Watchers rejected me. Ouch.   As usual with me, there is a back story. My coworker has been doing Weight Watchers, and it looked kind of fun and interesting. Mainly it was like a cool toy, and I wanted to play too. They had a promotion for the first month free, so I figured I could mess around with it for a month just to get a sense of what it was like. If you know me, you know I love making lists and keeping track of stats, so this seemed like a great combination of both.  …

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Flashback Friday: Lifestyles of the Small and Premature

29 June, 2012
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Flashback Friday: Lifestyles of the Small and Premature

For those of you familiar with the MTV show “Cribs,” please enjoy this installment of “Cribs: NICU” (ha ha). (Read the following an English accent in the stylings of Robin Leach.) While most babies are quickly bundled into their mother’s arms and shuttled out of the hospital mere days after birth, the small and premature enjoy luxury private accommodations where teams of qualified medical staff cater to their every whim. Think that’s impressive? Well, consider Search and Destroy Stream. Achieving their fame by heading out into the world more than three months before their due date, the Stream twins have…

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